COMMON APP POST

After a few days of panicking about summer homework, my future, and my life in general, I am back! I know you all missed me sooo much. All 3 of you (cue laughter track).

Anyway, it's been quite the confusing week. Common application opened up a few days ago and ever since, I've been weeping inside. Though honestly, besides the whole essay writing ordeal, I can't see much pain in Common App's process. Maybe I speak too soon, but the application part of it (entering your personal information, etc) is actually enjoyable for me. But that might just be because I've always loved filling out applications (I used to make applications for everything as a kid. EVERYTHING).

The essays are going to be a pain, though. I just know it. It's even more stressful because it's the biggest part of my application that will make or break acceptance. Actually, that's a lie. They're going to start by weeding out bad grades and stuff, so I'll probably be rejected or deferred (wait listed) on that basis if it came to that. But if another applicant were on the edge and I were also on the edge of acceptance and rejection, it'll most likely be our essays that set us on either side of that admissions line.

I just hate to think that my essay is worth so much. True, this is kind of a blessing in that I can use it to my advantage...but what if I can't? What if my best isn't good enough?  asklfjasklfjakslfha

I'm going to self-medicate with ice cream, now.